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Everything has happened so fast lately that i feel lie i got no time in the day to do anything.Moving out has never been so weird.I feel weird.I still feel like I should be home.I miss having family so close to me.I miss everything that I have put in boxes in the gargage.I miss my cats.I wanna be strong about everything that when it comes to night I can't help but to just cry.I really miss home even it it was a broken one.My body feels so restless that the one thing that can kill me helps me just deeply breath.I dunno I made a mistake,but it feels like i did.
Then there is a person who pops up into my life outta nowhere that has my emotions going on a roller coaster.I must admit I do love this person,but does he?I wonder if he is back just to push me aside.I am too scared to even be involved again,not just with him,but with anyone.
If I feel this way about everything going on right now,I dunno If I 'll be able to make that huge move to another place.I do hope that I make it outta this mess I got myself into.

boy here we go again?

At thee moment everything to me sounds crazy.I hope that after Missouri I come rejuvenated.I need a break from EVERYTHING!
My cat had babies yesterday night and there so cute!I am too lazy to move now.Seems everything is shifting in my life.Old flame is back and I am not sure were it is going really.I just hope I don't go back to square one cause I have been there alotta times.Only time will tell I guess.

Digital painting

*these pictures do not belong to me.I just practice on them for digital painting.

I ate your cinnatwist..

This weekend went by super quick.Work all week,GRRL FAIR/Art Walk and well catching up with sleep.Next weekend is sure gonna be another hectic one..Finding out the prices for my trip to Missouri,getting my car,catching up wit school,Insanity show and moving out and on top of everything working all week.

Hope my pack last until my next pay check....cause I am dirt poor right now.

Made this with adobe illustrator from my computer apps magazine project.

2010

I dug through some of my post and found this one of my new years resolutions...
So my New Years Resolutions:
1.Save up 500 more bucks for my friends car.(almost this week!)
2.Get my license.(permit!)
3.Stop procrastinating
4.Start on my craft blog.
5.Visit my friend during spring break.
6.Start thee craft zine
7.Moving out.
*That's all I can think of.:)
The ones in bold I haven't done..I know there is more ,but I just can't think of any right now..

if you forget me

*One of my fave poems : If you forget me By Pablo Neruda


If You Forget Me

I want you to know
one thing.

You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
that sail
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
remember
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.

But
if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.

Pablo Neruda