A bit about me..

I was the chubby quiet timid girl playing in the sand box when I was a youngin'.I grew up still being that in some way.I am am still learning how to accept my body and each day it is a struggle.Each day I am learning bit by bit to accept it.I can't wish to be tall or look thin because I know that it will never happen. Society has basically shoved it through magazines that tall and thin define beauty.What is beauty?
When we see a clouds up in the sky and call it beautiful.Or the sun set on top of the ocean streaming a reflection it we can it beautiful.If you noticed the clouds are all different shapes.The sun appears to be huge up close ,but far away it is tiny.How about flowers?All different kinds,sizes and shapes.We still consider it beautiful.I believe that is true beauty,because that is what makes them beautiful.Even society still gets to me on those days I lose all hope,I still look at it that way and it makes me accept who I am.
Though I am still quiet to the point where I have heard it scares people and makes me seem angry.I am not angry I am just a quiet person that if you talk to me I'll talk to you.I do like meeting people it just takes me a while to get comfortable.Yet,I am still learning to change that habit by opening myself up more to people.
Well I don't play in the sand box thats for sure.I have amazing friends I am going to The Art Institute to get my BFA to become a costume designer of fashion designer.It sounds cliche ,but it has been something that I have been doing since I was 13.I think I would have been miserable if I went to nursing school because I had a feeling it was not for me. I took a risk and went with my gut instinct. All I really want out of life is to have a job I love and be happy with what I am doing.
I work at McDonald's and it is not glamorous at all.But it is a job that pays.I have learned how people are and which I had a video camera to show them how grumpy they are over food.
I desperately want to move out.I miss my green hair.I want tattoos.I wanna fully be able to support myself.I want to travel the world and by golly I will do all these things!