Because your young.......

I am in love with this song right now!

Wipe the tears from my face

Wonder if things would be like this if you were around to tell me that everything would be okay.Then you would cheer me up and make me laugh.Tell me you miss me and you love me.And I'd feel like your the only thing that can make me feels like there is hope.

happy thanksgiving...........

Today I a very devastating day for me.I think my stupid father threw away my Hermes Typewriter.It was so pretty and in mint condition.I am bummed because I wanted to make something for a friend with it.Above is a picture that looks exactly like that.It is either in the garage,but I doubt it cause today I was down there trying to look for it.However I did not find it.Goodbye my Hermey......
On to other news,my head hurts and I need a smoke.................
My mother is possibly going to drink her angry away.My family,well more like 3/4 is eating Thanksgiving Dinner right now.I am in my room typing this blog cause I no longer feel like I am a part from that family.I am happy this way though cause no one can criticize what I eat or how I don't act my age.
I am just bummed that I could not find my typewriter and that asshole could have threw it away.He makes me so angry.He like to do little things to piss people off.
Grrrrr....I want to hate my life ,but I got good things going for me as well,so I don't hate it completely.

schmoo pooo

Well,for starters I am in a kinda ehhh.. mood.It is already Tuesday and I feel like this week if going to be filled with disasters.I do hope this Thanksgiving turns out okay.I am probably going to stuff myself with FOOD!Who isn't?
Yeah well the one thing that I am thankful for is that I am still alive.I am not dead,but survived I guess another year.
I don't get why men scream at women.It truly bunches my nerves.
School was pretty good and next week I make a mock up.I am excited!
Shit,it's almost the end of the year.Hopefully things will get better.
So yeah I hear Irena won Project Runway...Ewww.

I aint no WooHaa.I am a LADY!

Sketch By:BenHeine
I got asked by some stupid werido if I would be interested in a porn through myspace.I was like...WTF!.Checked his profile and he was a 23 year old perv trying to make adult films. He was saying how you can start by making 15k to 23k just starting off.He had scandalous women on his top too.I denied this person because I am not interested in the adult film industry!!!
I wanna be something in life using my brains and my creativity.NOT my assets!I would rather sell my clothing line near dumpsters if I have to than sell myself to these creeps. I am far to good than that!!!!

Grrrr....

Spent about an hour and a half registering for my classes for winter quarter on the computer!!!!this sucks because my plan was create stock up to start my wee bitty etsy shop.As of right now my sister is selling my clips and cute pouches to her friends at her school.
I have a feeling that I will be full time stress mode next quarter.
Only two classes related to my major the rest fundamental classes.I was really really looking for intermediate pattern making.I really got into fundamentals of pattern making this quarter it was challenging,but fun cause I get to make my own patterns!I recently brought to new Patternmaking Book By Helen Armstrong 5th addition.I found out that I won't be available intermediate until summer.So that book is going to be sitting there for a couple of months.On Second thought,I think I might put it into good use!

A bit about me..

I was the chubby quiet timid girl playing in the sand box when I was a youngin'.I grew up still being that in some way.I am am still learning how to accept my body and each day it is a struggle.Each day I am learning bit by bit to accept it.I can't wish to be tall or look thin because I know that it will never happen. Society has basically shoved it through magazines that tall and thin define beauty.What is beauty?
When we see a clouds up in the sky and call it beautiful.Or the sun set on top of the ocean streaming a reflection it we can it beautiful.If you noticed the clouds are all different shapes.The sun appears to be huge up close ,but far away it is tiny.How about flowers?All different kinds,sizes and shapes.We still consider it beautiful.I believe that is true beauty,because that is what makes them beautiful.Even society still gets to me on those days I lose all hope,I still look at it that way and it makes me accept who I am.
Though I am still quiet to the point where I have heard it scares people and makes me seem angry.I am not angry I am just a quiet person that if you talk to me I'll talk to you.I do like meeting people it just takes me a while to get comfortable.Yet,I am still learning to change that habit by opening myself up more to people.
Well I don't play in the sand box thats for sure.I have amazing friends I am going to The Art Institute to get my BFA to become a costume designer of fashion designer.It sounds cliche ,but it has been something that I have been doing since I was 13.I think I would have been miserable if I went to nursing school because I had a feeling it was not for me. I took a risk and went with my gut instinct. All I really want out of life is to have a job I love and be happy with what I am doing.
I work at McDonald's and it is not glamorous at all.But it is a job that pays.I have learned how people are and which I had a video camera to show them how grumpy they are over food.
I desperately want to move out.I miss my green hair.I want tattoos.I wanna fully be able to support myself.I want to travel the world and by golly I will do all these things!