So I messed up again and I practically have no one.Last night was not bad at all.I had fun being somewhere I have never been too and with people I did not know.IF I had to go through it again I would have brought body spray or breath mints.I am so desperate to prove to my parents that I can do it alone in this world.I can,but it's the money thats a problem.And well my party ways,I don't even consider myself a avid party goer or a drunk.I am so misunderstood at home that I don't even want to be here right now.Wish I could runaway,but sadly I have no car and no money to go anywhere.
My mother had basically not talking care of me anymore and my father well fuck him.I guess I am taking care of myself now.Things are going to be rocky at the beginning of 2010,but I think I can make it.Just going to work for myself and the independence I crave.

Because your young.......

I am in love with this song right now!

Wipe the tears from my face

Wonder if things would be like this if you were around to tell me that everything would be okay.Then you would cheer me up and make me laugh.Tell me you miss me and you love me.And I'd feel like your the only thing that can make me feels like there is hope.

happy thanksgiving...........

Today I a very devastating day for me.I think my stupid father threw away my Hermes Typewriter.It was so pretty and in mint condition.I am bummed because I wanted to make something for a friend with it.Above is a picture that looks exactly like that.It is either in the garage,but I doubt it cause today I was down there trying to look for it.However I did not find it.Goodbye my Hermey......
On to other news,my head hurts and I need a smoke.................
My mother is possibly going to drink her angry away.My family,well more like 3/4 is eating Thanksgiving Dinner right now.I am in my room typing this blog cause I no longer feel like I am a part from that family.I am happy this way though cause no one can criticize what I eat or how I don't act my age.
I am just bummed that I could not find my typewriter and that asshole could have threw it away.He makes me so angry.He like to do little things to piss people off.
Grrrrr....I want to hate my life ,but I got good things going for me as well,so I don't hate it completely.

schmoo pooo

Well,for starters I am in a kinda ehhh.. mood.It is already Tuesday and I feel like this week if going to be filled with disasters.I do hope this Thanksgiving turns out okay.I am probably going to stuff myself with FOOD!Who isn't?
Yeah well the one thing that I am thankful for is that I am still alive.I am not dead,but survived I guess another year.
I don't get why men scream at women.It truly bunches my nerves.
School was pretty good and next week I make a mock up.I am excited!
Shit,it's almost the end of the year.Hopefully things will get better.
So yeah I hear Irena won Project Runway...Ewww.

I aint no WooHaa.I am a LADY!

Sketch By:BenHeine
I got asked by some stupid werido if I would be interested in a porn through myspace.I was like...WTF!.Checked his profile and he was a 23 year old perv trying to make adult films. He was saying how you can start by making 15k to 23k just starting off.He had scandalous women on his top too.I denied this person because I am not interested in the adult film industry!!!
I wanna be something in life using my brains and my creativity.NOT my assets!I would rather sell my clothing line near dumpsters if I have to than sell myself to these creeps. I am far to good than that!!!!

Grrrr....

Spent about an hour and a half registering for my classes for winter quarter on the computer!!!!this sucks because my plan was create stock up to start my wee bitty etsy shop.As of right now my sister is selling my clips and cute pouches to her friends at her school.
I have a feeling that I will be full time stress mode next quarter.
Only two classes related to my major the rest fundamental classes.I was really really looking for intermediate pattern making.I really got into fundamentals of pattern making this quarter it was challenging,but fun cause I get to make my own patterns!I recently brought to new Patternmaking Book By Helen Armstrong 5th addition.I found out that I won't be available intermediate until summer.So that book is going to be sitting there for a couple of months.On Second thought,I think I might put it into good use!